I feel so lucky

The last couple of days and week we have been given such amazing training. We had a meeting is Dr. Ilchi SSN. We have had some tough training after meeting that has really connected me deep with my heart and my soul to uncover what my soul really wants. I have figured out that my souls wants to only have one mind. There are so many times that I can get confused about what I want or feel I want someting, but have a lot of doubt that leads me to other things. I have found that the only true mind i want is to complete my life and complete my soul. My body is here as a tool twords my completion. All I need to do is choose for my soul and the universe, my bosy and everything else will simply follow and support me through everything. I feel so lucky to understand this and have the opppertunity to come to this awakening. I am so lucky to have found amazing teachers to guide my soul. We were lucky enough to have these amazing trainings with master Gaia. I have learned a lot qabout principle, habits, choosing, and cycle of life. I know all I have to do know is simpley choose for my soul everytime!!!!

The last two weeks

Hello everyone!!!!!! so much has happened in the las couple of weeks. We have gone to many lectures of Dr. Ilchi SSN and done our chun bu shin gon performances. Alex nim arrived on March 3rd. It's been so great having her here. We have had so many amazing yeha night's. It's been incredibly touching to see so many Korean Yeha working to grow there soul. We have been doing demonstrations for them and also giving lectures about the honk ik philosophy. I actually gave my first lecture the other night. I was very nervous, but LOVED it. I felt like I really touched their hearts and hopefully inspired people.
Last week we got an awesome treat. Ichi Seung Seun nim gave let us be apart of a very special training, that usually cotsts a LOT of money. He said we have been doing a great job. that the mayor s and other people are listening to us and we are inspiring people to embrace their own history and the hong ik philosophy. He had a spiritual training. It was so amazing!!!!! Members could ask him any question and he spoke about some many amazing spiritual topics. i feel a much deeper connnection to him and am starting to understand his role of wisdom in my life. I became very clear on what i need to do and was able to really let go of some things that i was holding onto.
the last two weeks I have been through so much stuff. i have really seen how many judgements I have about myself and my actions. I have been working at letting go of my judgements for myself and others. i have also really seen my limitations. I realize how i am still so closed inside this box and amreally not free. I am watching and really trying to push through my physical body. More to come....

Home from Jeju and MMnim arrives!!

Hello Everyone!!!!!! Jeju island was so awesome. On the last day the myung yung had finally went away and I could really enjoy and feel the energy a little more. We came home on Tuesday and MMnim arived on thursday. Thursday we all got a chance to make the yeha team a great american meal. Brandonnim cooked some great hamburgers and we all made a delicious fruit salad. Then after we enjoyed another great night of karaoke. Friday was a great day filled with lots of training. It's great to have MMnim here, although it has been an adjustment ot add another member to the team. I am excited to have him push us to train more, but also alittle nervous at the chanllenges we will face with him here. Friday I also managed to twist my left ankle for the third time since we have been here. Fortunatley Team Junnim was able to give me a very awesome, but painful accupunture session. It nearly completely healed my ankle. I have been releasing some anxiety in the last ocuple of days, which has been great, but also very difficult. saturday and Sunday we went ot go perform for Seusungnim's lecture. Sunday we performed for over 10000 people. Very incredible energy!!!!!!!!

Jeju

Wow, so much has happened in the last few days. Wednesday night was a very late night and we didn't even get in until 4am. Unfortunatley I woke up about three hours later with food poisoning. Yuck!!! There's a first time for everything. I was sick all day and my stomach still isn't quite the same yet. But I was very grateful to get a couple of healing from some of the great sabumnims. Friday moring we left for Jeju Island. The Island of Peace. There is no crime here. The have no theft, hunger or homeless people here. It looks like the Hawaii of the east. The energy is so amazing!!! My stomach has been able to heal faster, but i have also felt some myung hyung in other ways. The first day we went and visited the Shunchan. It was a special place to offer gratitude to the land and it's people. After we went to go perform at one of the universities and had dinner with the local Body and Brain Club. Afterwards they performed some dances for us and showed us how to do them. very cool! Yesterday we had a chance to take a short ferry over to U-Do island. We had a chance to ride scooters around the whole island following the beach. The water were so beautiful and blue and a few of us actually went swimming in the oh so cold water. We took the ferry back and climed up Sungsanilchooleumb mountain. It's also called the sunrise peak. It was so beautiful. You could see the whole island.
Later in the day we went to a center that has been opened for 23 years. It had such great energy. I was so excited because I finally was able to walk on my hands for the first time. I took 24 steps. We later got to enjoy a night out of american pizza, alhtough I have noticed my body is changing and can't handle or doesn't enjoy the same foods. Today we are performing at the in Jeju and the city is honoring Dr. Ilchi Lee today. There is to be about 2500 people here today. It's still pretty crazy to be on stage in front of all those people.
For the most part I am really enjoying everything, but I have started to feel homesick. Also one of our team members left a few days ago and although it was probably best for him, the journey feels a little incomplete at times. I know it will get better as we go, but for now it still feels a little strange. Definaltey the homesickness is getting to me. I wish that I could just have the comfort of something american or familiar for just a little while. There is always so many new things, that it can be a little overwhelming at times. Being in a group can be difficult. I am trying to handle all of my myung hyung and negative emotions without letting that energy pass on to others. Without much alone time, it is hard to regroup myself or sometimes I feel a little scattered without my homebase. Overall I know this will pass and I will be embracing this more in a few days or hours. I love you all at home and miss you. Happy Easter!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow will be two weeks in Korea and three weeks since I've been home. This last week was GREAT!!! getting a little more adjusted to the time and food and even the sleeping stuff. I managed to snag a couple more blankets to sleep on, so I almost have a normal bed. Sort of. Last weekend we went to Chunawon. I loved it there!!! Chunhawon is the Ilchi meditation center in Korea. The energy was amazing. The moment we got there I felt more focused and less distracted by outside things. I was able to connnect deeper with myself. It also has a very harmonius energy. I could really feel us come together more as a team with more care and love for one another. We also did some team special training which was great. We had some sessions with Master Gya and out Team janim. Master Gya helped us get ready to give lectures about Brain Wave Vibration training to college students. All of the info we've been learning is so fascinating. The Hong Ik In Gan philosophy was in practice 10,000 years ago. So crazy. On Tuesday we came back home to Kookakwon, which is our home base. We live with all the sabumnims and masters here. Most of them live and work here. In Kookakwon there is also the Brain Education University. I really want to learn more about there curriculum. Dr. Ilchi Lee is also starting a Brain Education University in New York.
Most of the rest of the week we have been working on our presentations to give to the universities and also had a little time off. I was lucky to get a great healing session from our Team janim. He has been practicing DahnHak for 17years. We have been so lucky to get accupressure and healings from the highest level masters. We have our own personal accupunturist basically. We just drops by at random times and fixes things on out bodies. The lectures we are working on are about brain wave vibration,the Hong Ik philosophy, the Chun Bu Kyung, and also our own personal experiences. My sharing my own personal experinces about the struggles I had when I was younger has been both very difficult to say out loud from my heart and also very healing. I know I've said some of these words about my struggles a million times, but I hadn't truly expressed my feelings about it from my heart. I know the only way to reach people is to come from my heart and to be so sincere about everything I say. It has been and is continuing to be a great exercise and training for me. I have also found that the pains in my body alsmost directly relate to my emotional state. There is a lot of nervous and anxious feeling I have been tapping into through telling my story. Those feelings are stored in the stomache, and the stomache greatly affects the knees. My knees have had so much pain. Whenever I feeling my body aches, it has helped me to tapp into my emotions more readily so I can heal. Even though it is painful I am very grateful. I have also managed to twist my ankle twice in the last week, which has brought up other interesting feelings.
We went to go perform again this weekend. Saturday is there was about 3000-4000 people. Finally felt a little more comfortable and relaxed. We also really concentrated on feeling out heart before the performance, which was such a great exercise. I felt I could share more of my energy with the audience instead of feeling nervous about what I was doing. That afternoon we got a chance to share about where we were and how our insedes were doing. I shared a lot from my heart about my struggles and was appriciative of the oppertunity to share so openly and the push from Aaron sbn to do it. I felt like I have been crying at random moments all the time. He said it's like this iceburg was around my heart and it's melting away and it's all coming out through my eyes. I though it was a great metaphor!!
Sunday was the most important performance we've had so far. There are 2300+ sabumnims and masters in Korea and they were all here to watch us. We did our performance in one room where almost half of them sat (the other half were in various rooms watching via TV). We did our performance before Dr. Ilchi Lee came to speak about BWV (brain wave vibration). The energy we recieved just when we walked out was unbelivable. It helped like 10000 people in the room. I have never in my life seen even a quarter or an eigth of that many sabumnims in one place. It was so touching. We did Chun Bu Shin Gone, the Phoenix Dance, and some of the HSP 12 steps and sung Aryiang with the Dan Gun B Boys. They are amazing break dancers who perform with us everytime.
After our perfomance Aaron sbn gave his lecture and it was so touching. Then we went up to all sing From a Distance (Better Midler). This song is included in all our lectures because it really gives the feeling of the Hong Ik spirit we are spreading. To watch the 1000 master give ther 100% with us was so amazing. I caught a really awesome glimpse of what this world could be like all the time.
Then we got to stay and experience a ChunJe (I think this is how you say it). It was a very special ceremony to connect to our souls and give thanks to humanity and our own divinity within ourselves. Only masters usually see and get to experince this ceremony, so it was a great honor that we got to stay for this. I will never forget the experince or feelings I had that day.
Later that evening we were told that Ilchi Lee said we did an amazing job and we should go out to a special dinner. We all had so mkuch fun. We ate a delicous meal of seafood with octopus, mullosks, crab and squid. We also enjoyed quite a bit of Soju. Lots of fun!!! We also went to Karaoke afterwards. This was our second time. We had some much fun last time that we did it again. It was so great!!!!!! I feel there is so much more to share with everyone, but it's hard to find the words for much of my experience. I simply feel such overwhelming gratitude to my soul for being there and to everyone was has walked this path before me to help guide the way in the darkness. I am so grateful to Ilchi Lee Seuseungnim, for continueing to grow and see his vision develop and of course to the ancient Korean cultures of long ago. There were truly a Hong Ik society. If enyone want to see more of what Ilchi Lee is working on. The SUN or Spiritual UN is definatly something worth checking out. Very touching and it is what is vitally needing for this earth. Also his Prayer for Peace that gave to the UN on August 28th, 2000 is incredible. Definalty check it out. I love you all so much!!!! More to come later.....

So our first day in Korea was incredible. We got on the plane midnight on sun/mon and arrived tuesday at like 6am. And we took off running!! I had my first breakfast here which was fried pork, rice and of kimchi. Then we met many of executives who helped to get us here. So amazing to see how many people are apart of the whole organization. We later had a training with master Gaia. I was so grateful to move my body again and become connected deep inside. That night we arrived in Kukhakwon about around 1230am. And lucky me we get to sleep on the floor!!! This has been a difficult training for me not to have a bed (everyone sleep on mats). We also got to practice with the Dangun break dancing boys. The whole time we have been here there has been cameras and tv stations taking video of us. The 2nd day we were here we went to Sungymoon, which is the first national treasure of Korea. It was burnt down recentley and we went to go perform and give blessing and good wishes for the rebuilding of it. The next day we went to go clean up a huge oil spill of the coast of Korea. I was in awe of the mass destruction it caused. They say it will take 10 years to clean up. It really made me rethink about out earth and what action we need take to help protect the earth. Truly our hometown is the earth.
Later that night we watched the disney movie 8 Below. Dr. Ilchi Lee wanted uo to watch it and the interaction and relationship the dogs had with one another. Later that night we met with Dr. Ilchi Lee. We performed chun bu shin gong for him and listened to him discuss our mission and purpose and what to stay focused on during this journey. How to create a power brain that shares Hong Ik mind
Friday moring we got a tour of the history of Kukakwon and the Chun Bu Kyung and the history of Korean culture. I could feel such a connection to the history and life of past people. friday night we left Kukakwon and have been staying in hotels and traveling to and from performances. There were over 5000 people at our first performance. Crazy!!! Saturday night we finally got a chance to let loose a little. I felt like the energy of the group was a little lighter after our first performance. We got to stay at a hotel at the beach. There was a carnival and fireworks going off and in the background was the this incredible bridge that was lit up.Lot's of fun. We also ate at this restuarant that served puffer fish. The fish that if could the wrong way or cut poorly could kill you. Kind of a crazy experince. I definalty think some of us could feel a little altered state from the fish. Danielle and I were lucky enough to share a room with a bed!! But when we walked in we ended up with the lover's suite. There was this round water bed with pink and purple everywhere. So funny!!!! We also performed yesterday in front of about 2000-3000 people. After we went to dinner with some of the sabumnims and enjoyed our first Korean beer. We had a very traditional seafood dish, where the squid is actually still alive in the bowl when they bring it out. Very creepy!!! A very fun night!!!! We are now staying in Chunawon, the Sedona of Korea. There is so much more the share and so many experinces and awakenings I have had. I overall see how much I really want to focus on getting my energy and everything I need from inside. I really want to use all my energy and when I think there is nohting left to give, then to reach deep inside, go past my limits and create more from nothing. I really want to focus on the mind of an ambassador and remember to bring the deep peace to others. I love you all and miss you!!!!!Sarhanghapnida!!! To be continued.....

Wow!!!! I've been officially gone almost two weeks and it has been a whirlwind of experiences!! Our training is Sedona was awesome. We had so many great exercises to really create Hap Shim, one mind. I felt like I broke through some of my preconceptions. I really saw how much I need to stay quiet and inside. One of my biggest studies during this trip will be focusing on getting energy from inside instead of outside things or people. This has been a very difficult study always being with so many people. We also had an amazing oppertunity to get a training with Byuck Woon seun sun nim. We did some brain wave vibration training and some dahn mu, moving meditation. I could feel so deeply my connection to everything in the world. I could really feel how the whole universe and I were one and could feel the cosmic energy in the universe. All of the training we had really helped me to become clear about this journey and what our mission is.